I am not okay

If you ask me am I okay or not? I would say I am not. I just pretend myself to be alright in fact I am so lost. I don't know what to do.. I am afraid that people keep asking me about the wedding preparation. But nobody knows that this wedding plan would be cancelled in the end. How am I going to tell people about this? In people eyes I am a happy and blissful girl who is waiting for the wedding. The truth is everything would be changed! I am really totally lost.