Monday, September 23, 2013

I am stupid and bad.. There is someone who loves me, cares me, dotes me and treats me like a princess but I still make him sad and unhappy.. Am I idiot? I should trust him more rather that doubt him.. Why I must bring up the past to the present? Why I keep thinking those things? I shouldn't!!!! Nobody take it serious but why I keep digging the hole and make myself jump into it? Oh god! I ruined the good feeling I ruined everything.. Haix :(

Please please make this start over again. 

Tuesday, August 13, 2013


七夕情人节快乐!❤❤❤❤❤
今年的七夕跟往年不一样因为我身边多了一个"他" :) 缘份真的很奇妙,遇上了就是遇上了,感觉对了就是对了.. 之前一直希望这样的王子出现,结果这个王子真的出现在我眼前.. Love's beautiful so beautiful, 我失去过,更珍惜拥有.. 被保护被疼爱被照顾的感觉真的很好.. 
我不期望什么轰轰烈烈,什么刻苦铭心的爱情,我只期望平凡的幸福,这就足够了 ❤

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Yes, it's him ❤

I think I have abandoned this blog for ages until he told me that he spent one whole day to read all my posts, the first posts to the last one. Yes, it's him. A guy who I had been waiting for so long. A yes from me to him since a beautiful date --- 520. I am truly thankful to god for me to meet him and i believe this is fate. I will cherish him with all my heart because it is not easy to get someone who I love him and he loves me too. 

Sunday, May 05, 2013

♥ May ♥

May is always a best month for me and this year I love May more and more. All good things come at once and I feel that I am a happy girl. :D

By the way I am at Taiwan right now. Second time to be here. First time with university friend for graduation trip, second time with family and maybe the third will be with someone special. Who knows. :P

Do you believe fate? For me, I do. Sometimes it's crazy and insane. Now I truly understand. :)

Friday, April 26, 2013

♥ Random Post ♥


Having a mixed feeling lately. This year May will be a totally different month for me. Many things come together all at once. Sudden plan and sudden changes. Seriously I dont' know how to accept.

Gonna say bye bye to my very first job in my life. I appreciate what I've learned here. I got to know many many nice people here. So far I haven't met any office politics, this is what I glad to work here. But I have to move more and more to get what I want in the future. I've decided to change my path into another way. This is my decision, I've to bear all the consequences. There's always something to forgo and I need to choose what I want. I'll never regretted what I decide and I believe my choice is the best.

Thursday, February 07, 2013

习惯一个人

單身很久了以後,最大的困難來自於,妳不知道要怎麼和另外一個人在一起。



最開始談戀愛的時候,妳不會有這個問題。妳以為只要對方說喜歡妳,妳也喜歡他,就代表妳們在一起。妳們每天要見面,就像口渴要喝水。妳像沒有腿的人,到哪裡都要他接送。他錯過了妳的電話、他週末要和朋友們打球、他忘記了妳們的紀念日,妳會哭、會鬧、會生氣,不會想他會離開你。



然後有一天,有一個這樣的人,他讓妳知道,不愛一個人就像意外一樣,不知道什麼時候會發生。他不要妳了。



時間沒有任意門,妳沒有一夜長大。妳花了很久的時間復原,想知道自己到底哪裡不好,哪一個場景出了問題。妳在奇怪的時間醒來,在不同的場合掉淚。沒有人知道什麼時候原來的妳會回來。妳像是從戰爭歸來,總是做惡夢,夜半尖叫著哭醒,沒有人可以抱好一直發抖的妳。



所幸,就像樹被葉子留下過冬,隔年還是扶疏茂密一樣。妳還是好了起來。又開始笑到直不起腰,又會不小心得意忘形。一喝醉就對朋友撒嬌,問為什麼沒有人要妳。在婚禮上看到新娘和父母相擁而泣,想到妳的母親一直在等妳帶另外一個人回家,妳的鼻子酸了起來,眼睛有好多水氣。



不是沒有人喜歡妳,妳不是沒有動過心,有時候甚至會帶著對方參加朋友聚會。可是妳不會帶他去婚禮、安排三個月以後的旅行、一起養一隻小狗。這些都有承諾意味的事情,妳都不會做。不是因為妳不肯付出。妳給的起,妳是放不下。或者,妳不知道要怎麼給,才不會成為對方的困擾。妳太怕自己是個麻煩,妳的愛太重,不是每個人都能接好。



妳苦笑了起來。因為,妳就像是被放生野外的人,好不容易學會了怎麼自己取暖之後,已然不知道要怎麼重回都市,那個妳已經跟不上速度的先進文明。妳不知道要約會多久才算在一起,要多久約會一次。做完愛的隔天該不該打電話,是不是只要妳想他就可以打電話給他。妳不是外表看起來那麼完好,妳找不到他會擔心;他說要慢慢來的時候妳會沮喪;妳加班到很晚,一個人走出公司,寂寞到像整個星球只剩下妳一樣。沒有人噓寒問暖。



可是妳不會讓他知道這些負面情緒。不會讓他發現妳不過是外表堅硬,一折就斷。因為,妳習慣了指望自己,妳沒辦法信任除了妳以外的人。相信真的有人會喜歡一點也不精明的自己。愛情變得有好多招式,要預習好多比劃。妳不知道是在用心談戀愛,還是在用腦。妳不過是想要對一個人好,不過是想要有人一起變老。



數學不好的妳一直想,為什麼妳會一直得到,一個人加上一個人,最後還是只有一個人的公式。證明題還沒出現,證明妳算錯的人還沒有出現。妳告訴自己要有耐心,就像等水滾一樣,差一度就是不行。妳願意等,他會值得等,因為妳是很好的女人,他跟妳一樣在找,一起相依為命的人。

Friday, December 28, 2012

思绪 ❤

有些事情就是那么的奇怪.. 明明以为会是属于自己的到最后反而沦落到别人的手中.. 世间变幻莫测,没有百分百的事情.. 去年的曾经成了今年的回忆.. 只能叹息吗?不能,因为我知道不是属于我的东西我强求,只能慢慢的等待... 今年里我深深体会到这个道理.. 又一年咯,说快不快、说慢不慢.. 跌跌撞撞,我竟然毕业了!成了半年多的上班族.. 时间滴答的过,我的人生也这样的过.. 每天做工享受就是我目前的生活.. 没有埋怨因为天主对我很好,把好的东西都给了我.. 很满足的过每一天的生活.. :)

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

我依然单身......♥

越长大,越难和另一个人在一起。




不是因为条件。还是有人喜欢你,你也活得比以前更好,不再那么任性,更像在投资的艺术品。



也不是因为对爱情死心。在KTV突然听到的某首歌,会让你不自禁模糊了视线。一些场景,一些气息,始终无法忘怀。朋友帮你介绍时,你也会满心期待。



却依然单身。闭上眼睛吹蜡烛的时候,总是希望身边有另一个人一起许愿。一些客气的场合,有人来搭讪,话题围绕着你单身的原因。而他们最后给出的结论是,你太挑了。你在心里面笑,所以其他人都不挑?



其实你自己知道,为什么不能好好谈一场恋爱。就是因为,你太清楚自己是怎样的一块料,所以不会再轻而易举把自己交出去。就像是,有一天你发现跌倒以后的伤口,会开始留下疤痕,于是走路时不敢再大步跨出去。



因为,你惯性太强、记性太好。认识一个人很简单,忘记一个人很困难。你曾经心满意足的闭上眼睛,让另一个人带你去任何地方,最后却差点回不来。所以不能再失去方向感。



于是你就变得胆小了。以前打电话找不到人就拼命的打,现在发了短信没回应,即使心中有波动也可以忍住。以前最有兴趣的话题是对方的过去,现在会先关心这份感情有没有未来。



所以,空暇的时候,你宁愿和朋友在烈日下逛街,也不愿让对方觉得自己很在乎什么。你安慰自己,有朋友就够了,一个人生活也很好。如果有一天当那个人出现时,你反而会开始慌张、害怕。



只是,你并不是一定要单身,就像你也没计划过一定用哪只手写字。不过是,既然如此了那就这样吧。你想要有人一起旅行,一起看电影。你想和那个人说自己准备好了,只是没有勇气,请对方多一点耐心。你想说不再需要太多惊喜,在心里等的是一份相守以望的感情,抬起头来相视而笑,安心的生活,如此而已

Sunday, December 09, 2012

❤091212❤

Now it's December! I love December so much as I can feel the love in this joyful month. Since 25 June till now my life is filled with work and work and work only.. Now I know that once working life is started no more rest time. When I was a student I count the time one day by one day but now I count weeks by weeks.. Time waits no one indeed. So far I am doing good in Singapore. Getting used to this lifestyle. Somehow I miss student life very much.

In this year so so so many changes in my life, especially from a student transform to a worker. Life is totally different. But the good thing is I can use my hard earn money to buy whatever I want. No more asking money from parents but I am the one who give them money now. Treat didi meimei whatever they want. The feeling is good :)